New Year Blues
New Year's Eve is one of those things I've always considered hugely overrated. For a long time, though, this particular date was appealing to me, in the event of some lucrative gig (show), but personally, I'm not a fan of noisy celebrations and everything that goes with them. Also, I dislike pyrotechnics, especially as a big animal lover. I have four dachshunds that are always going through those days in severe stress, although they all have impeccable kennels and they're traditionally spending the fateful night indoors. It pains me to think how New Year's Eve must feel like for countless animals not so lucky. I simply don't understand people who enjoy shooting and noise, especially in a country that has gone through the war in not so distant past. Even when it comes to fireworks as an example of "sensible noise", if there is such a thing.
Furthermore, I'm irked by all those (great) expectations from the upcoming year. Unfortunately, I'm not an optimist by nature, and though I would very much wish it wasn't so, past experiences tend to guide me in an opposite direction. I must mention the end of 2020. and the ramblings on how this one that we just kissed goodbye will be "better in any case". Perhaps it is best to abstain oneself from a prognosis of any kind...
Of course, the beginning of a new period for many people starts with setting the personal goals that they simply "must achieve" in foreseeable future. As an artist, I'm trying to keep myself out of such cliches and the feelings of the majority, but I'm certainly not immune to this pressure that each new year brings. I often bash my head around thinking about all the things that I could potentially try to do (and haven’t already) - in most cases completely by myself and without the support from others. Some of these are realistically possible, such as remaining creatively active and gathering new knowledge and skills. However, it's not always easy to find enough motivation even for us who keep on going by doing creative work. The same also needs to be transferred into something tangible at least to a certain degree, but this is quite a tall order in most cases.
Anyway, I've decided to start this year maximally relaxed. Taking my mental and physical health more into consideration. Don't think and worry so much, not having too big expectations from others as well as from myself. In other words, day by day. I hope I will manage to persevere in this. ;)